This deal fell through, some problem on the buyer's side. Meh.
It's interesting how I was able to recognize the 'panic' symptoms earlier today, and I overcame them after recognizing them (I thought bending my neck down was causing all these problems, like crescendoing chest tightness and head pressure, due to compressing the vagus nerve but looking online suggested this was purely panic. The fact klonopin solved it for another person clued me in. I personally think that when anxiety/panic hits, it releases cortisol which causes vasoconstriction and some other biochemicals might induce other relevant cardiac changes, which reduces blood output to the brain and heart. Getting rid of the cortisol, by relieving panic/anxiety, relieves this affect.), but then talking about moving down there to buy another property that's further away but close enough to the 'big city' (So I can avoid big city infrastructure like trains) brings back the characteristic sweating. I wonder if that's a sign, and if so, what of exactly?
I can so easily plot these plans down on paper and say they're feasible, but going through with it seems to be another matter entirely.
I think I've figured I need an army to do this or equivalent. I figure the reason why soldiers can enter foreign countries without hysterical levels of stress is because they're going in as a group. The navy was very particular that every part of the 'initial move' was done as a group, including getting to know your group (Through weekly get-togethers at indoc and staying at the hotel 3 days prior, with nightly group dinners.) before boarding the plane. Setting up and moving in halfway across the country might be one of those things for me. Maybe I need to gradually do it, perhaps moving into an apartment and then overtime buy local property I can setup at my leisure. I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with that idea yet because this characteristic sweating hasn't gone away, yet. But, I'm sure I'll figure it out in due time.
I think I need some anti-stress/anxiety drugs to get me over whatever hump I'm apparently going over. I figure a dog might be another effective alternative, though that's not really known. I figure the dog might provide that "doing it as a group" element.
I'm getting some kava, it's recommended as OTC 'anti anxiety' medicine (None of the local stores carry it, suggesting it's some good stuff, lol). Research suggests there's longterm cognitive decline connected with longterm usage, but I suspect I'll suffer more longterm cognitive decline if ongoing heightened levels of cortisol are killing off my brain cells, one at a time, lol. Anyway, I'm not feeling anxious at the moment (I'm focusing on my work now, yeah. Might have something to do with it, I suspect.), so I probably wouldn't be drinking it right now, but if it ever does popup in the future.... yeah, lol.
(And, for the record; valerian root is effective at minimizing mild
ongoing levels of anxiety, but it won't prevent higher levels from occurring should something trigger them. For example, I had this chest pain after getting up from sleep, and I laughed at it saying in my mind, "If you're really heart related, why don't you take me now!" I dared, and then the pain suddenly intensified and my breathing felt like it just got a little shorter, and then that triggered the heightened levels of panic that lead to a 911 call and then eventually lead to me figuring out it's probably just anxiety causing acid reflux which I then declined their services. I was additionally motivated to decline their services because missing sleep didn't seem like a good idea at all, based on past experiences. I ate some spinach, it immediately cured it. Eating spinach won't immediately solve a heart problem because it takes /way too long/ to digest, unlike a drink or powder. For some reason, it doesn't seem like tums ever helps, despite other people's suggestions. I'm starting to think that spinach might just be a tad more effective than tums. And, for some reason, I'm starting to suspect that acid reflux can decrease oxygen intake rates, possibly by constricting the bronchioles, which might lead to the shortness of breath I've experienced at times, like yesterday. And, during some of those nocturnal panic attacks, where I'm noticeably short of breath and panicking.)
I need to start writing down my symptomatic episodes in a chart/journal, so I can reference it in the future. That way I can easily/quickly recognize the symptoms should my memory fail me, and address them more appropriately.
Standing heart rate is now 78 BPM, down from 120-140 BPM the days before. It's back to normal and wasn't a sign of 'being out of shape' as others online speculated or 'heart damage' as I suspected; it's likely anxiety and/or not enough 'deep sleep'(Anxiety has a way of preventing that, it seems. Your body will rest and your body paralyzed (Like normal), but your mind will still be aware of its surroundings listening to what's going on instead of dozing off. That kind of sleep feels just as refreshing (never got migraines that happens after 3 days of sleep deprivation), but it just doesn't seem as good.). And I need to avoid the 'heart topic', gosh, it's obvious how my panic just surges hearing/thinking of that word now. My pain suddenly intensified in the ER when the doctor made mention of the word 'heart', likely indicating underlying panic.
Just ate, I feel a little more anxious and my standing heart rate is 98 and my ears are cloggy(Typical tale tale sign). I wonder if the food was pushing up my anxiety levels, or if it was something else? (Like my parents?) Could explain why running away from the house seemed to quickly relieve the crescendoing panic attack, that one time. Might explain why I ran away as much as I did when I was younger; my parents scare me! lol That sounds like even more incentive to move out, lol. (To be fair, probably what I ate. Or my neck position.)
(There's that sweating feeling, again. grrr.)
And, I think prilosec should be contraindicated from cardiovascular conditions. It inhibits nitric oxide production by the smooth cells, thus increasing the risk of MI by 2x according to independent data-mining studies. Nitric oxide production is one of the primary benefits of spinach.
I'm starting to bet it's what I ate. See, it happens shortly after I fall asleep, and it happened to happen today after I ate supper. Yep, seems to indicate GERD / acid reflux. I didn't feel the heartburn chestpain, though, but I definitely felt upper chest discomfort (I did feel 'flashes'), anxiety and the cold sweat. I ate some spinach and laid down, which seemed to relieve it. I'm starting to think I need to plan my meals more wisely, and try to eat spinach last. As much as I thought I found out my neck has nothing to do with it earlier today, I'm finding myself backtracking because my upper ribs were pretty sore at the time. But, then again, it could be those particular ribs get irritated when acid reflux happens. It does seem to be pretty close to the bottom of the neck (The first rib bone, actually.).
At my age, GERD & ANXIETY seems more than likely.
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After yesterday's ER visit with intense chest pain and pain radiating down my left side, and they basically gave me painkillers and muscle relaxant and that was that. Then, after lifting heavy objects and placing them forward, I noticed the chest discomfort noticeably increase, tingling increased and I could feel some pain radiating down my left side and I was starting to feel sick. I thought about the mechanics of it, and I realized that placing heavy objects forward would pull the spine forward, which if that is what's causing the issue, then doing the reverse should possibly reverse it. Laid flat on my bed with my head face down for a good 20 minutes, instant chest/right-abdominal relief. Had a pained feeling in my neck, but the discomforting chest discomfort/abdominal feeling was gone. I kept doing that and all symptoms eventually went away within an hour (I can now fully rotate my head without notable resistance in the upper left direction). I'm thinking that forward positions is irritating the nerve somewhere around C6 (I can feel the nerve is irritated on the top left and bottom left of this particular vertebra, and I mapped the radiating bicep/index/thumb/chest pain to the C5-C6 nerve root one time.), and that reversing it on a regular basis should hopefully minimize future episodes. I realize this computer chair is definitely not helping, lol, and my job is essentially desk work.
I've long known that laying on my right side when the vertebra is 'not solidified'/'messed up' could induce skipping heart beats. So, the C6 vertebra acting directly on the heart is not too surprising. That is to say, it's very possible that the C6 vertebra did cause actual angina somehow, so the radiating chest/back pain may have been actual heart episodes. And, it's quite possible that laying on my right side when my back was "messed up" caused nocturnal panic attacks because of reduced cardiac output/inadequate oxygen caused by C6 irritation (Though, possibly it was merely cervical induced anxiety without the reduction in blood-flow/oxygen; though, I kind of wonder if the C6 vertebra is causing anxiety through a reduction in cardiac output and oxygen flow?). Though, there's a bet it was just intense radiation on the rib/back. The natural evolutionary background for this might not be too surprising; people leaning too far in the forward position were historically depressed people (Not just simply desk workers), so cervical origins of heart problems might have a historical basis.
I don't know if this is a permanent solution, but I'm hoping it continues working and it gets better and better. I'm also thinking that side it appears to be left sided, then laying the head down at a particular appropriate angle might bring more relief. Not really sure what that angle is, yet.
UDPATE: Just found out that it was possible to push it back too much. I layed flat down on my stomach and elevated my head on a pillow to get a more backwards angle, and after getting up, woah! Felt so dizzy and vertigo, it was ridiculous! I quickly tossed my head forward, pushing on the back of my neck, and my vision returned to normal. Man, that's one of those kind of experiences you hear people with failed cervical surgery having. No doubt the vertebra(disc?) was pressing on something.
Man, something in my neck appears to be ridiculously loose. I wonder if it'll ever solidfy again? I'm assuming it's been loose in the past (Would explain periodic anxiety relieved by laying flat), just never this loose. If I were to speculate on when it started becoming this loose, possibly 2 weeks ago when the laying-on-my-right-side panic attacks returned and I had recently started riding my mountain bike(Which has a "thrown forward" geometry compared to the last bike I was riding, and it was notably less comfortable to ride.). It might've become more loose when using the cervical traction device, which might be why I started to feel it in my neck ever since using it. The multiple rides to and from the hospital probably hasn't been helping. Well, in one way, this is ridiculously cool I know a little bit better what I'm dealing with and it appears I can effectively deal with it, but on the other hand, I wish it wasn't this severe(It could be dangerous.)! lol. It's going to take a lot of time to get this back into a solidified state and that's assuming I didn't destroy anything (Doesn't appear to be irreparable. I usually have a few good hours in the morning and can lift several heavy things before it acts up, suggesting that I can resolidify it by cooling down the 'high impact'/'heavy object lifting' activities.). Cool thing that I can gauge how far 'off' it is by pressing on my bottom left neck muscle; it becomes notably more sore when the vertebra is sticking out a bit more than normal, before I start exhibiting 'chest discomfort'/'left side' symptoms.
EDIT: Yep, probably caused neck strain with the decompression therapy. Apparently will heal in 2 weeks, cool. Still doesn't solve the C6 thing (I think?), but maybe it does. Right now, my left pinky seems to be tingling, uh oh. I'm not worried, I was giving my back a good stretch to the right since the left of the spine felt sore (Suggesting compression along the left), and that stretch felt GOOOD. Doing the same thing to the left didn't produce any feelings of relief, just normal bending, so that it a good sign I'm doing it right.
I'm trying to avoid a medical visit by managing this as well as I can. It appears my kind of neck strain is 'garden variety' in terms of pain, but it appears it might be serious looking at some of the criteria. (It only gets extreme if I start hyper-flexing my neck.) So far, no radiating cervical pain just yet and it seems to, in the past, usually during the evening hours.
And, just when I thought no calling emergency services, a possibly good reason to call surfaced, lol. On the night of 8/17/2016, I went to bed with some tingling in my left pinky which the 'paranoid side' of me associated with cardiac episode. However, I thought I've already cleared that suspicion away, and everything is related to cervical/rib issues. So I laid in bed, suspiciously woke at 2:20 a.m. went to the bathroom and felt this rather intense burning sensation in my chest. Granted, it did feel like it was coming from the ribs and looking back, I could see how laying flat on my back without a pillow could irritate the curvature of the upper spine (Which could radiate to the ribs), and after it subsided after laying face down, I did notice that my ribs, when touched, felt irritated like they had been burning, so it was probably nothing but the fact of the matter was that it was 2:00 a.m., about the same time all my other nocturnal panic attacks occurred, and my left pinky was tingling, lol. When I 'woke up' 4 hours later, god, felt so fatigued (Granted, probably because I didn't actually sleep). Went back to sleep, and felt a bit more normal. Noticed my blood pressure was unusually low, drank some water (A lot, I was thirsty), and it propped back up and I felt noticeably less tired. Got some more sleep and my numbers are reading 'normal' now.
(Interestingly, after eating, my resting BP, systolic and diastolic all went noticeably up, suggesting cortisol/stress, notably over this morning's number. It'd be ironic to think that eating delicious food would cause me stress, so I'm thinking the reason is similar to why someone might want to tell their parents to "STUFF IT!" after moving out, lol. Exercising shortly afterwards brought it back down.)
Interesting, ever since starting this laying flat on the bed with my face down 'therapy' (And maybe due to the right curve stretching), it seems the irritation in my upper spine has become /far/ less noticeable (Almost can't tell now). The strained neck is still problematic (Can still feel tension moving the neck and bending it down is still symptomatic), but it appears to be getting better. Got my fatigue pads in today, it allows me to simulate the softness of the grass/sand/dirt indoors for pacing/jogging, without causing high impacts to my back (Which seems to destroy things.). On another note, I received my white rice yesterday, and I will confirm that 600mg salt(1/4tsp) with 1/3 cup rice is absolutely delicious. Ate it with an avacado and some spinach. I see the Japanese knew what they were doing, lol.
At this rate, it almost appears I'll be getting back to work in a couple of days.
